Jamsters Final Wishes

http://www.photoshow.com/watch/vs3KN9Be  Jamster's photo shows for Memorial Service



It's 9 am. and Marlon has driven me to the nursing home to meet Hospice nurse Jen and Social worker.  Jammie meets us and we walk in together.  When we get in the  room I noticed she has some beautiful flowers.  Jamster told me the flowers are from her Grandma Grooms and she also got Jamster a giant Snicker bar.

There were 2 angels sitting on top of a light that make them illuminate.  So pretty she told me these were from her Aunt Maggie.

We have decided that we will have Plain City Ohio funeral home come and get Jammie when she passes.  We will find out all the pricing before we all decide any further arrangements.

 Completed the Make a Wish application and sent it to Sarah who will give to Hospice nurse Jen to finish filling out her part and turning in.  I signed to be Jammie's Power of Attorney and I will be the only one able to make any decisions regarding her health.  She did not want to name another person.  Jammie signed her Living Will.  Jen explained that what Jamster has there is no known cure nor do they really even know what causes it.  Jamster's lungs will slowly harden making it more and more difficult to breath.  They explained to Jamster and me that they will not call the hospital when things get worse but not worry she will not suffer nor be in pain.  Currently, they are giving her morphine to keep her comfortable.  As it gets harder for her to breath her brain will be deprived of oxygen and she will not be able to comprehend anything going on around her and she will talk off the wall.  To sit and listen to all this is so difficult.  Thank Goodness Marlon is taking good notes.....from this meeting.  I recorded it but who knows if it even taped?

Next stop will be a funeral home in Plain City. 

 Marlon called and we have an appointment today at 4:15.   When we pulled into the parking lot my heart sank.  I'm really dreading going into this place, but it has to be done.  We were greeted by a nice lady and given cups of coffee. 

She directed us to the room labeled Arrangements......

 We all sat down and she started going over all the different plans to choose from.  After much review the bottom line, it will cost a minimum of $12,000 for a full funeral with burial.  The price of cremation, picking up Jamster from the nursing home, a box to transport her in and take to the crematory, information sent to the newspaper, and 2 death certificates is $2,200.  We took the paperwork and need to get it completed for the newspaper and decide on any special thing we want to do with the ashes.

I called Jamster and told her the prices and she told me well Mom looks like you know what you have to do.  It cost to much so I will be cremated and you will set up something nice for me right?  Well, of course, I'm going to do that for her.  I told her what the plans might be, but nothing is for sure yet.  Maybe Memorial at Mechanicsburg Park and rent the park building there.  I will have someone that her Aunt Maggie wants to sing a song.  I have a slide show to play for everyone, we will let some people get up and say nice things about Jamster's life.  I think she is ok with these arrangements.   I was so glad when we were completed with talking about this.  I have spent my entire day finding out information so we don't have to do this later.  

Mason her youngest son has not been adopted so the funeral home said he will be entitled to Social Security and we needed to order one death certificate for him so he can collect a monthly check.  

After so much thought about everyone's wants and needs,  we have decided to have a viewing, and directly after viewing a memorial service. No thing graveside as she will be cremated and we will scatter her ashes over the ocean, where she will be free to fly.

Arrangements~Power of Attorney

        

Hospice asks me to come in tomorrow morning at 9 am and sign to be Jammie's power of attorney.   I told them I would come in and they said they wanted it done before Jammie cannot think clearly enough to give me the rights to advocate for her.  This immediately brought tears to my eyes.

I did ask them if they could move Jammie closer to me so I would not have  travel on 270.  Due to my brain aneurysm I do not really have the attention span to be doing this.  After the phone meeting, I got a call from Hospice telling me Jammie really does not want to move.  They told me Jammie has so much on her plate and they don't want anymore added.  They told me that she is dealing with being in a nursing home,  she is worried about the kids father trying to get Mason and how this is going to effect me and her kids.  I don't want to add any more stress to her.  I will not say anything more about moving her.   If there is one more instance where they do wrong by me to her then I will demand  she be moved.

Hospice wanted to know if I had made arrangements with  a funeral home?  If so who she when the time  comes they will not have to bother me with this.  I told them NO I have not talked to any funeral home.  They are going to talk with Jammie and I tomorrow.  Jammie does not have insurance and we just retired and do not have the monies to give her a big funeral.  This is not going to be something I want to talk about again with her.  I dread even thinking about it.

 After the talk with Hospice, I have cried

feeling sorry for myself and not wanting God to take my baby girl home yet.  What will I do when she's gone?  I have spent my life taking care of her and doing my best to give her good directions for living a good life. Oh, Jammie the love I have for you, a child who has always respected me and loved me.  Never a bitter word towards me.   I will not make this hard on you child.  You have done everything to be strong for me.  God, please give her peace and comfort through this difficult time we are having together.  Let her death be fast and painless, put your loving arms around her when you come and get her.  Give us both peace knowing she is going to heaven to be with the other angels who have gone before her.

    

Life's Blessings

Jammie's Blessings;  I think my baby sister Jennifer said it best ........

We had a great visit with Jammie. Of all my nieces and nephews, I can say that she has been one of the most respectful. I am always Aunt Jenny to her and I appreciate that. It is hard to see Jammie in the nursing home but what amazed me is how I believe she was more worried about me being ok with it than herself. 
We had a good time talking and reminiscing. I believe Jammie is at peace with a lot of things now.....and that is a good thing. Some people never get there. 
Rob and Jammie had a good time talking too. They left me with the dinner bill��!! Lol
She told me she feels taken care of and does not have to worry now. She knows she has family who loves her and she truly appreciates them. 
We do love you Jammie. Forever and always. 

...... Summer Days.....

Spent the afternoon and evening with Jamster today.  When I got there she was ready to get out of there.  I love the beautiful flowers and that HUGE Snicker bar that her Grandma Grooms sent her.  Jamster was smiling from ear to ear when she was showing me her gifts.  She told me that how lucky she is that her Grandma loves her so much.  Mom and  Jammie had just got off the phone with each other when I arrived.  With it being such a nice summer day  out we decided to go to Starbucks.

Found the Starbucks and we ordered a Caramel Macchiato  for Jamster and I got an iced coffee with cream. The place was so crowded so we decided that we would just go back to the van.  I opened up the doors of the van and turned on some music.  I just love our long talks over some Starbucks beverages.  

 I  really enjoyed feeling the nice breeze that was flowing through the van doors and the music on the radio.  We talked about her old apartment which brought up checking to make sure the electric had been turned off and taken out of her name.  I had sent STOP service over the AEP website.  When I checked again they still had not turned off the electric so I called them and it will be turned off on 8/25/15.   I was also told that the electric was being put in another tenant's name on Sept. 11, 2015.  Looks like to me that they will be putting it in there name earlier than they thought. After more chatting and sipping our beverages Jamster wanted to go to McDonalds for an oreo blizzard and a chicken sandwich.  Closed the doors on the van and headed across the street and went in and ordered our food and sat by the windows eating our food and chatting about what else we needed to get done.

Jamster is starting to sound worse, she sounds like shes getting a very bad cold.  The nurse said her lungs sound rattly and they have started her on antibiotics.  She hopes this clears her up we will have to wait and see.

Make A Wish

Had a wonderful visit with my daughter Jamie. Worked on completing the form for make a wish Foundation. We sat at Starbucks in the nice cool breeze sipping lattes and munching on pumpkin bread. Both of us love this time of the year. 

Did a little bit of shopping and she's wore out. So its time to take her home. Love every minute I get to spend with my beautiful daughter Jamie. Her make a wish of the place she wants to go to is Myrtle Beach. Even if she doesn't get to be out in the Sun on the beach, she will still be able to sit on a balcony and listen to the beautiful sound of the ocean, and go out on the beach early in the morning to see the sunrise. That evening she can go out and watch the Sun go down. I hope her wish comes true.

If They Only Knew

August 21, 2015

Jammie and I went shopping for a new outfit to wear when my baby sis Jennifer arrives for the first time since she's been sick.  It's a long way for her to come and my baby sis is so very sick also with a lung disorder.


I think we found the perfect outfit a loose pair of pants that are pink with a black print on them and A very cute black flowing shirt with some lace along the bottom.
 We are so thirsty for some ice beverages from Starbucks.  Yummy  I left so she could rest and prepare for her visit with her Aunt Jenny and Uncle Robbie.  Jammie is excited they are coming and wants to look nice for them.  My sis and Jammie have been texting back and forth mainly because Jammie was nervous they would not come.  I told her not to worry and take a nap and rest for her evening out.

  She rested and when she got up she called me and said that she may not be able to go out tonight.  What's wrong Jammie?  The nurse said I have rattling going on in my lungs and I needed a breathing treatment right away. She started crying because she had been looking forward to this since she was told.   Long story short she got well enough to go out.  She paced the floors waiting on your arrival. Sister, I know you cried when you walked in and seen her for the first time in a while.  I know how I felt walking into the nursing home and how bad it made me feel for her.

I can't say everything that happened that night, but I know that Jammie texted me and told me she was having a wonderful time.  Her dinner at Lone Star steak house was so delicious.  When you told her  she got to order any steak she wanted well sister that is just what she did LOL

Uncle  Robbie, you made her laugh and she really enjoyed your entertainment LOL   I love how my sister Jennifer and Robbie made her feel so special and so important.  She will cherish that time with you guys till the day she dies.  It meant more to her than you will ever know.   She told me how when it got time to pay the bill that Jammie and Uncle Robbie went outside, they did not want to see your bill Jennifer LOL.

She loved how you did not care that she was extra work to take her out.  No complaining from either one of you about lugging that wheelchair around and that big tank of oxygen.  God, I pray that you know how much your visit made her feel so special.

From what I understand you guys took her shopping and she was allowed to get some things that she needed.  Forgot something she mentioned the Adult coloring book you bought her, she had colored a page just for you.  She was so proud to have something to give you upon your arrival.

The glow and smile on her face when I arrived the next day as she got the things out that you bought her made tears roll down my face.  She was fighting back tears as she told me all about her time out with you both.  I don't need to list what you bought her but know that she appreciated everything.  She is very, very happy to have family who really cares about her.  She also said for the ones in the nursing home that have nobody she is kind to them and does special things for them.  What a special young lady Jammie is to want to give to others to feel as special as she does.  Jennifer the little kisses on top of her head made her cry as she told me about that.  God I thank you from the bottom of heart for your kindness you have shown Jammie.  1 1/2 hours one way wow long drive...... thanks for everything.

 Love you Rob and Jennifer.

More Nursing Home Problems

As soon as I hung up from Jammie I called the executive director over the Gahanna nursing home.  I was transferred to his phone and its 7:50 am, he did not answer, but I left a lengthy message telling him about the staff making Jammie move from the window bed to the bed by the door.  I told him the nurse had told her that  a new resident was arriving today and so she had to move.  Which she did move without help to the other side of the room.  I told him that the nurses had retaliated against Jammie for my telling on them for not doing their jobs and making them clean her room from top to bottom.  I also ask him since when did one resident have the power to come in and say move her because they want  a  want a certain bed?  My daughter was there first and she should not have had to move.  I also told him I wanted her put back in the same bed she was in and I would be in that afternoon to check on this situation. He must have listened to my message and immediately went and talked with jammie.  As soon as he left her room she called me and told me he wanted to know who told her to move and there is no new resident coming in.  He was going to investigate and she would be moved back by the window.

By the time, I got to the nursing home that afternoon they had moved all her things back to the other side of the room.  I'm sure someone got in lots of trouble over this.  I am Jammie's advocate and I will make sure no nursing home she is in will treat her with respect.  I will not tolerate ignorance or retaliation of any kind towards her.  I feel sorry for the residents that have no one to look after them to make sure they are treated with dignity and respect.

Jammie and I did leave the nursing home and shopped for her some personal hygiene items as what she had  been given was like water instead of hair shampoo etc.  Got Jammie a new outfit to wear when my sis and Jammie's cousin comes tomorrow ( Friday) to see her.  I know she will feel more comfortable because these clothes fit her nicely.

We then went to Starbucks where we sat outside and got drank some iced coffee drinks and I had some great tasting pumpkin bread......jammie had a blueberry muffin.  I told her about Adult Make A Wish Foundation and I would fill out the paperwork.  I just needed to know where it is she would like to go.  She decided she wanted to go to Myrtle Beach.    I love every minute I get to spend with my beautiful daughter jammie.   Even if she doesn't get to be out in the Sun on the beach, she will still be able to sit on a balcony and listen to the beautiful sound of the ocean, and go out on the beach early in the morning to see the sunrise. That evening she can go out and watch the Sun go down. I hope her wish comes true.

Taking Care of Business

Contacted the Nursing Home and told them I wanted to talk to the director.  The receptionist tried to get me to talk with the head nurse.  I told her NO I had already tried to talk with them and they did nothing.  She finally put me through to the Executive Director and I can't believe that he actually picked up the phone before 8 am.  I told him the detailed story about what happened yesterday, and how dirty the room was and how mad and upset I was that my daughter who is terminally ill-slept on the bed they had not cleaned and had been laying in a bed that had someone's else's blood and urine on it.  Told him just how dirty the floors were and the dust that covered everything in the room.  He apologized for everything and told me they don't operate their business like that and he would take care of the matter right now.  Within 15 minutes, he had investigated the situation and had people down there to clean the entire room including the blinds hanging on the windows.  I thought everything was taken care of and Jammie would be in a nice clean room so I would not have to worry about this anymore.

Jammie said when she got back to the room everything had been cleaned spotless and that included mopping the floor.  When I hung  up little did I know what would happen next.  Jammie did not call and tell me right away because she was afraid of retaliation against her for getting them in trouble.

Because the ladies had to clean the room they made Jammie all by herself move all her things to the bed by the door as you enter.  They did not help her move the recliner we just got her and help her out in any way.  They told her another resident was coming in and they were taking the bed that Jammie was in by the window.  Jammie never said anything she just did what they told her to do.

I called her the next morning around 7:00 am and ask how she was.  Boy was I surprised that they had made her move all her things to the bed by the door.  I had so many emotions going once I heard the news.  Jammie told me she is afraid now that I have said something to the director already I will just make it worse for her.
Jammie thinks I don't know who I'm talking to, but I know it's the executive director over the nursing home.  I was told by Dave the director if I had any problems to contact him and only him.  I'm doing what he told me to do.

Homey Atmosphere

When a person is in the nursing home young or old they want it to feel somewhat like home.  Jammie from day one of her arrival said she doesn't want to spend her entire time in bed and wanted a recliner for her room.

Marlon and I spent a day shopping around for the best deal.  After sending pictures to Jammie of the ones we found for her it was decided the best deal was at Lazy Boy for $399.  Today is 8/18/15 and we have directions in hand and ready to go pick up the recliner and take to Jammie.  This van is already coming in handy.

  Marlon drove us to The Rehabilitation & Health Center of Gahanna so we could take Jamster the recliner she has so desperately wanted.  As we walked down the halls to get to her room the urine smell was so strong.  I thought I was going to gag.   Arrived at her room and told her we had her recliner and Marlon went out to get it while Jammie and I prepared the room for the additional chair.  I went and found a broom and a dustpan so I could sweep her floors.  Tried to find a mop but couldn't find one the floors are so sticky and need to be mopped so bad.  Turned on the light above her bed and dust flew out from under the light.  My daughter has a lung disease and I'm sure it makes it even harder for her to breath with all the dust in there. She is already on oxygen.  Marlon and some lady had a cart and brought her recliner in.  Marlon put the back on it and Jamster sat down and got this big grin on her face.  Boy, I love to see her smile like that.

Her room still needed something to make it feel like home.  We decided  on getting a new comforter set for her bed.  Jamster was happy to be leaving the nursing home and get out and shop some.  We put the wheel chair in the van and oxygen in the van and headed to Bed Bath And Beyond.

 Just so happen Marlon found this area that had lots and lots of marked down clearance items.  We ended up getting her a 8 piece comforter set for $13 and was originally $100.  Since we saved so much we got a set of flannel sheet on sale and discounted down to $10.  The deals were so good we ended up buying a comforter set for our guest room original price $250 paid $ 25. Fill blessed that we found such wonderful deals.

 It's lunch time and we decided to go have an Arby's sandwich and, of course, some good curly fries all of our favorites.

I had made my daughter a blanket and when it was bedtime she laid on top of the bed and used that blanket to cover up with.  We came 2 days later and decided to make the room look more like home so we took her to get new bedding.  When we returned and moved the furniture the floors were dirty and when I pulled the chain to turn on the light above her bed and dust came flying out.  I removed the worn out comforter from the bed and OMG a big pad that they put under residents was there with dried blood all over it and there was no sheet on the bed just a flat sheet and that pad...I was so discussed with this.  I took it up and told the people at the front desk.  They just took the bed pad.  Before I left I told them I wanted to fill out a complaint and instead they directed me to talk with the maybe it was the head nurse?  They knew she was coming and they could have at least given my daughter a clean bed to die it.  They did not say they would do anything to correct this situation or even find out who didn't do their job.  I even had to get the broom and dustpan and sweep the floor myself. I wanted to mop the floors and couldn't find a mop.  Please investigate this place and get my daughter out of there and find her a decent place to die.  No one should be at this place till they get some properly trained people and care about the people they are taking care of.  Young Old it doesn't matter. Just because these people are on medicare doesn't mean they should get any less care than the ones who aren't.  Please, dear God gets my daughter out of this place.  It's no wonder there rating is 48 I think it should be less.  They could have told me they would investigate and let me write up a complaint....I have sent this information to the Ohio Department of Aging.  

Jammie loves all her new things which makes her room seem like it's so much bigger and not so dark and dreary.

Complaint to Ohio Department of Aging Columbus, OH

My daughter is on medicare at the age of 35 years old.  She is terminal with A lung disease and Hospice was called in.  We determined that she needed 24-hour care and so  Hospice got her into a nursing home till she passes.  The nursing home is called

 The Rehabilitation & Health Center of Gahanna

Rehabilitation Center

Address: 5151 N Hamilton Rd, Columbus, OH 43230

Phone:(614) 337-1066

The halls smelled like urine so strong.  I was about ready to cry just taking her to a place like this to die.
 I had made my daughter a blanket and when it was bedtime she laid on top of the bed and used that blanket to cover up with.  Jammie was scared and lonely so that's how she slept for 2 nights.  We came 2 days later and decided to make the room look more like home so we took her to get new bedding.  When we returned and moved the furniture the floors were dirty and when I pulled the chain to turn on the light above her bed and dust came flying out. I went and got a broom and dustpan and cleaned the floors.  I ask for a mop, but they did not offer to get me one.   I wanted to get the new things we purchased on her bed.  I started to remove the worn out comforter from the bed, and  a big pad that they put under residents was there with dried blood all over it. There was no sheet on the bed just a flat sheet and that pad...I was so up with this.  I didn't notice the white cotton blank had dried urine on it till later.  I was just so upset to see that dried blood and knew my daughter had been laying on this bed.

 I took it up to the nurses station and first a young aid took it from me.  She asks if I wanted to talk to the nurse and tell them and I told her yes someone needs to know.   She took the bed pad and got rid of it. The rest of the linen and blankets from the bed I had sat outside the door by Jammie's room (39B).

Before I left I told the nurse at the main station for Jammie's floor that I wanted to fill out a complaint and instead they directed me to talk with the head nurse over her floor?

They knew she was coming and they could have at least given my daughter a clean bed to die it.  Not one nurse told me they would do anything to correct this situation or even find out who didn't do their job.

 Please investigate this place and get my daughter out of there and find her a decent place to die.  No one should be at this place till they get some properly trained people and care about the people they are taking care of.  Young, Old it doesn't matter no one should be treated like this.  Just because these people are on medicare doesn't mean they should get any less care than the ones who aren't.

Please, dear God gets my daughter out of this place.  It's no wonder there rating is 48 I think it should be less.  They could have told me they would investigate and let me write up a complaint....

Jammie's Journey...........

     Well, another day has started and I have wanted to keep track of every day that I have known my daughter Jammie was given 6 months to live.  I have not done what I set out to do. She was told this information on July 11.

     Hospice came on Aug. 12th, 2015 and talked with Jammie.  Jen the Hospice nurse said that the Dr. had reviewed all her medical records and she should have been in hospice care when she was released from Hospital in July.  They also told her that they wanted to take her that day to a nursing home in Gahanna, Ohio.  Jammie told them she needed time to get her things together so it was decided at that time that Critical Care Transport would come and pick her up the next day at 3 pm.  The chaplain from Hospice came and said a long prayer over Jammie.  Jammie really needed that prayer as she was scared as to what was about to happen to her life.  Jammie was in shock that this happened so quickly.

I had asked her if I needed to be there prior to them coming and she told me NO.  I really should have been there but had no clue that Hospice would come and move so quickly.  The decisions Jammie had to make she wanted to make on her own with no influence from anyone.  God made this happen like this, it must have been better for me not to have been there.  I do not control emotions well so its best I was home.

There was a lot of paperwork for Jammie to sign.   One was a DNR (Do Not Resuscitate) form, God this must have been so very hard on her to sign this form.  What a brave young lady Jammie is.

On her own she has stopped taking the steroids prescribed for her.  This is the only drug that would have prolonged her life,   It's also a drug that makes you gain lots and lots of weight and makes you so heavy that she can barely move around.  Once she quit the drug she lost 20lbs in a matter of days.  She seemed to be more active with all the extra weight off of her.  She will have some quality life left but not much quantity of time.  She preferred to have some quality time with her kids then be miserable on the steroids.  Jammie is making her own decisions on how she wants her time left on earth spent.

Jammie called me to tell me what had happened with Hospice visit.  Boy was I surprised that everything was moving so quickly.  I thank God, my sister, Maggie and  brother Bobby were there to be with her when she was given the news that she would now be in Hospice care.  They have been by her side every step of this.

 Together as  a team we supported her in getting the care she so desperately needed.  Marlon has supported all of us to get her apartment cleaned up and the things she wants to keep her children were removed and brought to our condo.  These memories of Jammie's will be given to her children at a later date.

That evening before the arrival of Hospice Bobby, Maggie and Jammie came over and we enjoyed Jet's pizza on the porch.  The talk was light between us as we cherished the time we were sharing together.  Marlon went and brought the pizza's back and got us all beverages of our choice.  I love this man who in the background does all the things to make this transition go as easy as possible for all of us.

Well, it's Aug 13th, 2015 and Marlon and I start on our way to Westerville, Ohio where Jammie lives.  Today I noticed the very big dark circles around her eyes, which told me she is getting sicker.  This worried me because I had never noticed that before.  We arrive and Maggie, Bobby, and Jammie had packed up all that Jammie wanted to take with her to Greystone.  She had her TV, and a beat up radio and pictures of her 3 children to take with her in a pile on the floor.  I had loaned her a suitcase and she had it packed with some of her clothes.  Looks like when it all comes down to it; we all only really have a few belongings that means so much to us.   The items she took meant something to her.  She loves her children, Josh, Josie, and Mason.  The pictures of them are what she wanted to see every day when she wakes up.  I will always be proud of her for doing the right thing for them and giving them up for adoption to a wonderful lady named Melissa Nunamaker.  What a great person to take all 3 children and keep them together.  The kids all call Melissa, Mom and they call Jammie. Mom.  Not confusing at all because the kids love them both.

  It's 3 pm and Critical Care Transport has not arrived.

I got a phone call from Dana my wonderful friend wanting to know how it was going.  Well, it made me feel so important that she would call me when she is on vacation.  God thank you for putting such wonderful people in my life.

 At 3:15 Jammie called Hospice nurse who in turn called Critical Care.  They had been lost but now were only 5 minutes away.  When they did arrive my heart started racing and panic set in.  Jammie hugged her roommate, Molly who is also her BFF and her other friend goodbye, tears were flowing at this time down both of their faces.  All I could do was stand and stare thinking OMG this is really happening to my family.  It is all starting to sink in that my daughter is terminally ill.   Maggie, Bobby, Marlon and I all followed Jammie and the critical care driver out.

 We are going to follow them Gahanna Nursing Home.  Now I am finally breaking down.  Tears are pouring down my face.  I'm talking to Marlon telling him how bad I feel and how Jammie must feel.

 Tears rolled down my face the entire way there.

We have arrived and are parked.  We all get out of our cars and go over towards where Jammie is sitting in the Critical Care Van.   We had to wait for the gentleman who picked her up to confirm that he is taking her to the correct entrance.  As I am walking in we are greeted immediately with smiles and welcoming us.  We all are still in a senseless motion trudging along.  As we trudge along down the hall I can smell urine thinking to myself I don't want to leave her here.  We walked down the halls till they stopped in front of room 39B. Tears started flowing down my face again. 

I had no control I could not stop the tears.  I wanted to be strong for Jammie but I was not. The room looked like a hospital room not a room to be comfortable in.  Tears are pouring down my face still.  Several head nurses were in the room to introduce themselves to Jammie.  They decided they would take Jammie to view the place and I was escorted out and into a nurses office.  

I cried and they explained it was ok to be upset.  I cried for at least 15 minutes before I got a headache and had to stop.  I picked myself up and dusted myself off and told them I was going to be ok.  I have not cried till today, before I just couldn't face reality.  It's now very real........  Got up and told them I was ready to find Jammie and Marlon.  My sister and brother left to go home.  They have spent the last  days with her.  They told me its my time to be with my daughter and they were leaving.  I went in Jammie's room where Marlon and her were sitting.  Picked up the blanket I had originally made for Josie and put it on her bed.  It looked very nice.

 Marlon brought in all her things and I unpacked her suitcase.  NO hangers in closet, Marlon said he would go and buy some for Jammie and Jammie ask for a 12 pack of Mountain Dew.  You have to buy soda pop at 65 cents a can.  Marlon was gone not very long and I look up and he has the goods.  All the shirts and dresses are put away.  Marlon decided to hook up her TV she brought and remove the tiny one that was there.  Remote Control was not with her TV but the one for the nursing homes TV worked just fine on her TV.  We sat around and talked about next time we come to visit and how much she wants a recliner for her room.  She doesn't want to sit on her bed all the time to watch TV.  I have to make this happen for her.

Marlon we love you and thanks for being there for the both of us.  ♥

  She told me how much it meant to her to have us both there to help with this transition. All of your family Jammie will be there for you all the way.......