Arrangements~Power of Attorney

        

Hospice asks me to come in tomorrow morning at 9 am and sign to be Jammie's power of attorney.   I told them I would come in and they said they wanted it done before Jammie cannot think clearly enough to give me the rights to advocate for her.  This immediately brought tears to my eyes.

I did ask them if they could move Jammie closer to me so I would not have  travel on 270.  Due to my brain aneurysm I do not really have the attention span to be doing this.  After the phone meeting, I got a call from Hospice telling me Jammie really does not want to move.  They told me Jammie has so much on her plate and they don't want anymore added.  They told me that she is dealing with being in a nursing home,  she is worried about the kids father trying to get Mason and how this is going to effect me and her kids.  I don't want to add any more stress to her.  I will not say anything more about moving her.   If there is one more instance where they do wrong by me to her then I will demand  she be moved.

Hospice wanted to know if I had made arrangements with  a funeral home?  If so who she when the time  comes they will not have to bother me with this.  I told them NO I have not talked to any funeral home.  They are going to talk with Jammie and I tomorrow.  Jammie does not have insurance and we just retired and do not have the monies to give her a big funeral.  This is not going to be something I want to talk about again with her.  I dread even thinking about it.

 After the talk with Hospice, I have cried

feeling sorry for myself and not wanting God to take my baby girl home yet.  What will I do when she's gone?  I have spent my life taking care of her and doing my best to give her good directions for living a good life. Oh, Jammie the love I have for you, a child who has always respected me and loved me.  Never a bitter word towards me.   I will not make this hard on you child.  You have done everything to be strong for me.  God, please give her peace and comfort through this difficult time we are having together.  Let her death be fast and painless, put your loving arms around her when you come and get her.  Give us both peace knowing she is going to heaven to be with the other angels who have gone before her.